
I remember being 25 and sauntering off an airplane. I remember wearing a red sweater with bell sleeves, dark jeans with a subtle sparkle, and my favorite black, lace-up boots with rubber heelsâthe ones that my Chinese best friend had to wait forever for me to take off whenever I visited her home. I remember wearing a maroon velvet hat, bought some 10 hours earlier at Heathrow Airport. The hat probably didnât go with the rest of the outfit, but I didnât care. I felt good. I walked nonchalantly to the arrivals gate and found my parents’ faces.
âYou look different,â my mother told me. âI almost didnât recognize you. I saw this elegant woman walking toward us and thought, âThat canât be Diana, sheâs not that tall.ââ
I nodded, knowing that my mother had noticed some meaningful change in me that I sensed, but didnât fully understand. Now I realize the accuracy of her remark: I looked bigger, because I was bigger. In some unexplainable way, I had expanded.
That isnât the only time traveling has done this for me. In 2010, when I returned from a two week tour of Ireland and Scotland, I again felt enlivenedâby people, by scenery, by possibilities. This trip, as with any of my traveling adventures, was not perfect. Nor was it without heartache and tears. Amid the many wonders and joys I experienced, I also felt loss and confusion and desolation. Some of this was fueled by my fear that this would be my last big trip anywhereâthat this was as good as it was going to get. Even so, I returned to American soil ready to try, to work, to become. I believe it was on the strength of this energy that I completed my first novel and began to play the harp.
Now, having returned from a much closer trip to the Somerset Folk Harp Festival in Parsippany, New Jersey, I again feel that creative energy, that desire to be moreâor, not more, but myself, completelyâno bigger, but no smaller either.
This, for me, is one of the gifts of travelingâthe opportunity to find out who you are when youâre not among familiar, accepted surroundings and situations. Itâs the freedom to allow yourself to see the hidden parts of yourselfâand perhaps, even begin to cherish them, believe in them, and act from them.
What are the gifts of travel for you?